Weight Loss – Get Honest or Get Fatter!

I never thought of myself as a perfectionist or a liar . . . but I was. I was usually an all or nothing type of person. I couldn’t stay perfect on my diets, so I’d give up until I could start over the next day, the next Monday, or the next month. It was like I was on a stationary bike, riding hard but going nowhere. Plus, I was frustrated and angry most of the time. I felt like a big fat failure.

One day, I saw my actions for what they were – human nature. I never lived up to the standards I made for myself. It was exhausting. So, I re-thought my path to reach the goals I set. No more being down on myself for natural falls or not being 100% all the time. It’s such a pleasant change to just give myself a break – to say, “It’s ok. I stumbled but will keep at it.”

However, actually doing this mental decision in my daily life was and is tough. Yesterday, I ate 220 calories over my goal because I chose chocolate candy after lunch. It still bothers me that I ate a sugary, unhealthful snack and also threw a wrench in my calorie allotment for the day, but I’m not quitting my eating-healthfully program. I’m not bingeing like I once would. So, I stumbled. I’m moving on. I’m getting a bit used to this imperfection stuff. It feels pretty good, too. I’m still down 6 pounds, and it’s slow going, but I’m learning.

My non-scale victories for the week were not berating myself and not giving up on my goal. I also took a multivitamin each day.

I’ve had a rough day today, so far. Mentally, I want to eat for some reason, but I haven’t had anything but coffee because I’m not physically hungry. It’s a very strange combination. I am being honest with myself, though, and not trying to hide my actions. This keeps me from the binges and most of the poor choices in meals.

I’ve realized that this issue with food will be a lifetime struggle. I’m in my fifties, short, not super active, and have had a hysterectomy, so my metabolism is sluggish. I don’t exercise per se because I’m still too large and get out of breath too easily (I also have asthma). So, for now, I just get as much physical exercise as I can doing housework and running errands.

It’s almost summer. That reminds me of my past and drinking a large Sonic slush each afternoon because it was cold and kept the hundred degree days at bay. I looked up the calorie amount in a large slush. It’s 470! That is a third of my daily allowance.

So, my imperfections are something I need to accept and the fact that I need to log my intake of foods and beverages daily is obvious.

It’s time to be real about my problem with food and tackle it the best I can. It’s time to get honest or get fatter.

Week 3 – Diet. Off Keto on Calorie Counting!

I am beyond excited to share with you that I’m down a total of 7 pounds over the last week and a half. I had a stomach virus that took off about three of those, but the rest were mine from eating less and eating smarter!

I’ve stopped keto and am counting calories. Why? I wasn’t losing weight on keto. I also had a very hard time keeping up with the eating plan with such a slash to the amount of carbs per day (I was on 20 grams a day or fewer). I’m now on a 1500 calorie a day plan and eat veggies, meats, fruits, whole grain breads, and healthful fats.

I was struggling every day to stay true to a keto plan. It was not at all a “normal” feeling program for me. Even after a month or two trying (yes, I’d been trying for that long), I still was clawing my way uphill most days – trying so hard to stay on that program.

Now, I just eat healthfully and count the calories I take in. It is much nicer, and I can honestly LIVE with this program. I use the Loseit! app and journal my meals, exercise, water intake, and anything else I feel like monitoring. It’s fun!

I asked my doctor if there was a medical aid to help me with my appetite here in the beginning of this phase of a new path. She suggested a few different meds. I didn’t like any of them. Too many side effects. I chose one I’d had two decades ago and am on a very small dose of it (Phentermine). I can’t tell I’m even on it except for my being able to control my decisions over food better. I don’t have a burst of energy or sleepless nights like old diet pills used to have. It’s so nice to have some “help” here for about a month or two. I don’t need it for any longer than that. Also, don’t want to be on a med for any longer. I still have to make wise food choices and eat less food. I still have to move my body some. It’s not a magic pill.

I ate a cinnamon raisin English muffin for breakfast with a bit of peanut butter on top for a protein kick. Some hot coffee with it hit the spot!

That lasted me until lunch. For the mid day meal, I ate a salad recipe I love. It’s got shredded cabbage, walnuts, grapes, chopped chicken, and apple in it. I add a little Tony Cachere spice to it, as well. It tastes wonderful and is good for me.

Are you fighting your eating plan right now? Is it more like a job? You might need to consider a different approach as I did. I’m much happier now.

Tonight, I’m making a chicken and sausage gumbo. Yes, it’s still on my daily food list. It’s still “counted.” Here’s to gumbo (because I can finally eat rice)!