(photo from deviantart.com)
Maybe if I cry hard enough for long enough, I can get rid of ALL of the toxic feelings inside my chest.
Maybe that knot will go away. Just maybe the gnawing will subside.
There are toxins in our tears. Did you know that?
Tears of stress or grief . . . release toxins and bacteria.
I should be clean enough to stop the pain I carry but it hasn’t happened. How do I cry enough? I’ve shed more than my share of tears. What IS my share?
So, I fight the inner feeling that makes me think there is no beauty in the sun on the autumn lawn or the soft music coming from my laptop.
The fall leaves don’t matter – yellow or red. Used to be my favorite season. Now, I wonder if I’ll see another autumn and realize I don’t really even care.
I am better today. That was yesterday.
Oh, the difference a day makes.