Happy Birthday To Me

It’s my birthday. Well, in 3 minutes, it will be. This is the first birthday I have ever spent home alone and probably on the bed or the sofa. 48 years old.

Negativity emanates from my pores, but I try hard to keep my family and friends from seeing all of it.

Well, 2 more minutes.

I have wonderful family and friends who check on me, talk with me, and tell me they love me. That support system is a blessing.

1 more minute.

I type as my special day arrives. It seems only fitting. Writing is the one way I can fully express myself.  Thank god for writing.

Happy Birthday to me. It’s midnight. I was actually born at 12:01, so in one minute, I’ll be 48. Good-bye 47, it’s been hell.

Depression affects almost 10% of Americans. That is one out of every ten people you may see in a room at any given time. Seems like a lot.

Oh, I’m officially 48 now. No streamers, phone calls, balloons, or music?

What I do have are these:

a loving boyfriend, healthy and loving children, new grandbabies, sweet parents, …………..that’s all I can really think of.

Whew. It’s 12:03. Some of the pressure’s off. I wish it were March 30th and that this day were already over. Such pressures on the birthday.

I want some positive thoughts in my head. Let’s share some here!

Soft clean sheets

Santas with real beards

The smell and sound of campfire

Finally taking your bra off after a long day

The other side of the pillow

The smell of freshly cut grass

Fireflies at night ON that freshly cut grass

Paper towels instead of wall-mounted hand dryers in a public restroom

The sound of rain when you are inside a tent

Putting potato chips on a sandwich

Dangling your feet in water

The smell of new Play-Doh

Laughing so hard you start crying

When your pet notices you’re in a bad mood and comes to see you

Looking up while under water

Little kids showing their muscles

Staring into a fire

When you reach that point in a book where you just can’t stop reading

When insects are struggling to do something and you help them

When you hear someone’s smile over the phone

The core of a cinnamon roll

Gutsy city animals

Seeing a big dog sitting in the driver’s seat of a parked car

Sweet cornbread with brown beans

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Now, with nice thoughts, I’m off to sleep away the first several hours of my birthday. 😉

 

 

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10 thoughts on “Happy Birthday To Me

  1. Happy Birthday to you! 🙂

    When you typed,
    “What I do have are these:
    a loving boyfriend, healthy and loving children, new grandbabies, sweet parents, …………..that’s all I can really think of,” I really hope you feel that makes up for the other stuff.

    Personally, out of that list I only have a loving child – but he definitely outweighs any negativity life can throw at me!

    Have a great day,
    Alice

  2. Happy Birthday! 47 is behind you now…lessons learned, time for new experiences. I wish you nothing but the best for this coming year. 🙂

    I loved your comfort list….especially the ‘taking off the bra after a long day’. Some days, that’s my favourite part of the whole week. xx

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